Heartache

This weekend Hayli moved to her dads. Cuz we grounded her. Cuz he provided a mini-van for her to drive. Cuz she didnt want to apologize. The child (she is 16) who just two weeks ago wouldnt tell her dad and his horridly evil wife that she broke up with her boyfriend, cuz she "hated them and they would make fun of her" ditched us for them. Totally. The girl who hasnt spent a weekend with her father in 2 yrs. The father that calls her fat. The step mother that calls her fat. The "others" in that fake-ass Christian house that make fun of her and laugh at her and secretly loathe her....take her in. Give her a "refuge" from her very own momma...cuz she was grounded for a week.

Wtf?

What is all that? As a good "Christian" father should he not have told her to go home and accept her punishment and suck it up? Should he have guided her to do what is right? yes of course. But he never does. He never has. Cuz even after TWELVE....12...TWELVE years of being divorced...him and his wife....of all people...still have a hard on for me. Still want to see me destitute, still want me groveling, and penniless.

These two people who go to church 3 times a week and judge EVERYONE. As if they are God. The two people who have not contributed a dime to the childrens support for 6 years (and three yrs for the boys)...yet can sit and bitch about me and my husband. These people who are tares amongst the wheat. Wolves in sheeps clothing. This is the man who can not hug his children or praise them or tell them he is proud of them. THe man who loves them CONDITIONALLY.

I hate them. I know God would tell me to let it go...and I try. I pray every night for grace. And God has been merciful and given me a ton of strength. But this is just hurtful. Mean . Vindictive....(for NO reason), Other then they are just mean, fake, horrible people. And i wish them heaps of ill will. I do. I am sorry.